November 21, 2016

bob & tom

F1050006 F1050007F1050008 F1050017F1050014F1050009 F1050024 Various photos from Tasmania, July 2015

It's a Sunday afternoon and I'm currently sitting in bed enjoying the view outside my window into my apartment courtyard. I'm sorting through some of my old photos, some which I always intended to upload here but never got around to it. My boyfriend is sleeping on the floor because he has a weird thing about sleeping in bed when he's sick. It's approaching winter in Berlin, so days spent indoors like today are becoming more common. I'm bittersweet about this - on the one hand I've never had a winter Christmas before; the mulled wine is already popping up on every corner along with the decorations and the cheesy music which I secretly love. The bars are smokier and dark, the streets quieter. On the other, I'm sad because I'm most likely heading home in February and I long for just one more of those long summer days drinking beer in the park and riding around the city. I'm sad that I'll never experience Berlin in the same way again. Maybe we'll stay until next July, is the thought that pops up in general conversation at least once a day between my boyfriend and I. But my life in Berlin seems too transient - I can't stay forever (although I could come back) - and so I feel as though I can't build towards anything meaningful here. For now, I'm happy just seeing where things go - decisions don't need to be made for another six weeks. Maybe I will experience another Berlin summer again.

November 04, 2016

the colours of fall

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Yes I write here sometimes. I try to make it a regular thing, but alas it never sticks. After seven years I'm going to stop trying to make it stick and just write here from time to time.

This week I'm recovering from a bout of tonsillitis - I've spent a week in bed sitting next to my three plants (which I must say are dying because they sit right on top of the radiator). I find when I'm forced to take time off my feelings on the matter change dramatically as the week passes - at the beginning its fun for about a day before I get restless and clean the whole house wanting to get back to work. After four days, thats when the real relaxing happens - this was yesterday. I pulled out the copy of frankie that has been sitting on the window sill since I bought it and indulged in every sweet smelling page - it was lovely.

Afterwards, I started to search the internet for a point and shoot camera for my boyfriends birthday - it was then that I realised that a) I haven't taken a roll of film since I arrived in Berlin ten months ago and b) I consistently wished that all the photos I've amassed on my Olympus and iPhone had been taken on my film camera, in particular the photos above. I wanted the photos to have that slightly saturated tinge to the leaves and the eery silence in the blue sky that film photographs give you. I envied the colours of the film photos I was browsing, the emotion that can't be conveyed in a digital image. It made me feel anxious as to why I purchased such an expensive digital camera, when a 50 euro point and shoot will do the trick. I'm not sure if I'm quite ready to let go of my Olympus, but for the moment I'm going to give my film camera a bit more of a go.

May 16, 2016

Port Arthur

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Here are some more pictures from my series on Port Arthur (for my previous post see here) - the former convict settlement in Tasmania, but also, perhaps more famously, the site where Australia's largest mass murder took place 20 years ago. Walking around the site, it was eery to think that such a thing could happen in such a beautiful place. Even though it was the dead of a Tasmanian winter, the sun was out and glistened on the water, the old ruins a lovely shade of yellow and the trees green and lush.

April 13, 2016

Two Two

P1010016P1010012 P1010009 P1010010 P1010035 P1010034P1010052P1010049P1010007 Two Two Cafe, Neukölln

After not the best start of the day, my boyfriend (who has just moved to Berlin) and I stumbled across this super cool Japanese cafe in the middle of Neukölln. It has a super cool vibe that was totally not Berlin - for example, it was super welcoming, had wifi & super cool stationary for sale and the coffee was decent (okay maybe I'm being a bit harsh to Berlin...). But it is definitely going to be a staple in the future!

German classes are done (for the moment) and last week I had my university orientation. The German classes came in useful because the entire week was pretty much done in German, which means that I missed important things like how to sign up to my classes. Sigh, but I got through in the end, and despite some hiccups on the way, nothing is going to stop me from staying here at the moment. So what if I can't complete enough credits to transfer back home, it'll all work out, says the voice in the back of my head who still thinks ignorance is bliss.

I also managed to score a job at this super cool boutique-y shop right next door to my house, as did my boyfriend at an equally as cool coffee roastery. Speaking of him - he's been here two weeks now and settled in pretty quickly. Its much more fun heading to the veggie markets with someone slightly more cooking inclined than myself. It's been a blast so far, and I couldn't imagine spending my time in Berlin with anyone else but him (sappy-ness ends there). We're thinking of trying to stay here for the year, it's easy for him being British, but my Australian blood doesn't get me too far. But again, it'll all work out...

March 13, 2016

Denkmal für die ermordeten Juden Europas

P1010037 P1010070 Denkmal für die ermordeten Juden Europas, Berlin

I watched a German film called Victoria this week about a Spanish girl living in Berlin. The whole film is shot in real time and in one take, and follows her meeting a group of Berliners over a night. I don't want to give anything away - my only advice is to watch it, even without subtitles if you prefer, so you can really go into the mind of Victoria.

I've spend most of my evenings after class going to the gym, cooking dinner and then studying two hours of German. It can be lonely sometimes, but there is something refreshing about routine and having enough time for myself to do things that I always skip for a social occasion back home. I really cherish the free-ness I have in Berlin, the lack of commitment I have to many things, the idea of living life a little slower but more enriched. My boyfriend is coming in two weeks, so maybe that will change things a little bit, but I'm excited to have company again.

March 05, 2016

Neue Heimat

P1010032 P1010037 P1010038 P1010041 P1010044 P1010046 P1010057 P1010059 Neue Heimat, Friedrichshain.

Life in Berlin is going pretty damn splendidly at the moment. A year ago I was a mess; I almost failed a couple of exams, I was crying a lot, nothing seemed to be going right whatever I did and I spent a lot of time leaning on my wonderful friends shoulders. But now, I can't even imagine what I felt like back then. Everything has changed so much. My biggest problems right now are - my pan is too big too cook scrambled eggs, I can't finish a loaf of bread by myself before it goes stale and I miss my boyfriend. But he'll be here in a month, and I'll have someone to venture with to the abandoned airports, military stations and all the cool things that are in Berlin.

This week I've been going to the cinema a lot in an attempt to watch all the films nominated in the Oscars. Brie Larson has been one of my favourite actress' for a while now, and I cried so much when she won her well-deserved Oscar. I stupidly watched Room on the plane to Berlin, not realising what an emotional rollercoaster I was in for and cried for most of the journey. It was such a raw experience. The film didn't pity the characters, nor did it portray the experience as a sick circus show for its viewers. It was very much a show about love, connection and survival. I have never seen another film quite like it. Other films I've seen this week include Brooklyn, Carol, Spotlight and The Revenant. Brooklyn and Carol satisfied both my love of the 1950s fashion as well as my passion for a well written love story. Spotlight was intriguing for the whole two hours despite knowing the ending (because, well, its history). I found The Revenant, however, boring, lacking in a major plot line and dragging on for way longer than it should have. Other films I hope to see this week include - Amy, Victoria (a German thriller that I've heard rave reviews about here), The Hateful Eight and Anomalisa.

February 08, 2016

house of small wonders

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These snaps are from a cool Japanese cafe in Mitte with super good breakfasts'. My only complaint was when I asked for a double shot latte, they gave me this massive coffee, the size of one of those gross Starbucks Venti cups. Anyways...

I'm still without internet, which is starting to bug me a little bit considering there is no data connection in my apartment. In its absence, I have binge watched all of Making a Murderer, Narco's & Gotham in two weeks, finished Lena Dunham's Bio and studied a lot of German. Hopefully it is installed today, because living alone is lonely enough without the whole of the interwebs to keep me company. When it is installed, I hope to update here 3x a week. I've just finished a month of my German classes, with two more months to go. I've been able to practice my German a little bit more because my friend group now consists of an amalgamation of several nationalities, where our only mutual language is German. Conversation is fun, and it helps me speak quickly. Its still a shame that my German won't ever be as good as my French, purely because I speak so much English here, but then again, it's much nicer being understood and being able to chat to people.